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There was a time in my life when I would daydream of meeting a guy at a coffee shop. I’d be reading a book, drinking my Caramel Macchiato at Starbucks somewhere and this guy would just come up to me and strike up a conversation. I’ve never been good at social interactions, specially with guys, but for some reason we just end up talking for hours. He would talk about the books he’s read and the video games or sport he played. I would comment on how I’m not very good with anything that requires hand-eye coordination, we would laugh. After a long and fun conversation, full of wit and interesting topics (and probably 2 more cups of Caramel Macchiato, because I down those things like no other), he’d ask for my number and a possibility of meeting again some time.
ANDY love. <3 Miss you, stalking your blog hardcore. Loving your posts :)
lol thanks toni! Miss you too! Still looking forward to your (hopefully still happening) move!
what font are you using in your edited photos.
What do you wanna tell to the corrupt govt officials in the philippines?
When was the last time that you got mad?
ate andy what’s your theme?
Aside from my regular clothing shopping spree lately, I’ve been spending a great amount of my paycheck on a couple of make-up products that have been coming in at work. Normally, I don’t spend that much on make-up, i just buy them from the drugstore, but since I get a discount at work, i decided to try a few out.
I’ve always been a fan of Stila’s stay all day liquid eyeliner and their lip stain line, but I was a bit hesitant at buying liquid lipstick. I’ve had such horrible experiences with the ones i bought and tried out from before, and it was such a hassle. But when these came in at Urban Outfitters a couple months back, I was so intrigued by them, however, considering the price ($36), I didn’t want to spend more money on lipstick that, with my track record, would probably be a waste. Also because I don’t like shinny lipstick, and it wasn’t really advertised on the container that it was going to dry matte.
One of my coworkers came in a couple weeks ago wearing another shade of this lipstick and I fell in love. It looked so amazing, and she kept rambling about how great it was, so i decided to try it out and thank the Lord baby Jesus, because holy shit, it’s amazing.
Finally an #ootd post!
This guy’s a typical look for when I go to school, specially when I have to be in school before 8am.
So, I’ve recently gotten into Low Slung Skinny Jeans by BDG because of how relaxed and comfortable they fit. I got my pair from Urban Outfitters for only $10 (they were originally $69) which was the highlight of my week. I bought another pair in stonewash blue the other day, and God, THE. BEST. PAIR. OF. PANTS. EVER. It’s such a great change from all the high-waisted pants I’ve been wearing.
I’ve had an obsession with chelsea boots for such a long time now and I was so happy when we finally got none-laced ones at Urban Outfitters a couple weeks ago. These pair (also by BDG) comes in black as well, and I really wanted to get those, but I already have so many black chelsea boots. These are always a great way to clean up your las day look and make it seem more put together.
I just realized now that ultimately, this outfit is composed of mostly BDG pieces, which is really great because BDG comes up with such great clothing at a very affordable price. My beanie is a regular in all my selfies and the plaid button up (my favorite) is from Garage. Plaids are a great way to add a pop of color and pattern into a what would have been a plain ensemble.
Hello, how do you deal with long distance relationships? Esp. when he’s in the Philippines, and you’re in Canada? I’m about to go through the same shit. And It’s going to be the hardest thing to do… and I would be gone for 4 years. We both know we’re not leaving one another. And we’ve always been faithful and loyal. We’ll always be anyway.. But how do you do it? I know it’s not my business.. I just need some comfort/advice coming from a stranger who’s going through the same thing as I am.
Ola, chola! So I’ve been planning to blog about something related to my #ootd’s and for a long while, I couldn’t come up with anything because I really haven’t been dressing up these past couple of months due to my busy schedule with school and work (not to mention that it’s winter here in Calgary and as much as I love dressing up in layers, winter brings out the lazy in me).
Anyway, yesterday, I had some free time and I was pretty happy with my outfit choice, so I decided to share some of my outfit detail secrets. I know how infuriating it is to put together a really nice outfit and have to always keep it together throughout the day by constantly checking if everything is where it needs to be. For this particular post, I concentrated on the 90’s waist knot (I just called it that because I don’t really know if there’s an actual term for this “style” choice). It’s gotten quite popular, again, to tie a thin sweater, or a button-up (preferably plaid) to your waist to add more dimension to a considerably “lazy” outfit. I realize that a lot of people have been having some trouble keeping their shirts on they waists because after all the walking, it always eventually falls down your legs. Well, fear not!
A couple months ago, when this trend started hitting the streets, I too had the similar problem. Working with a shirt tied to your waist was such a hassle. I used to only make a single knot because doing a double creates a weird circular bulge around your crotch that isn’t at all pretty, and even then, my shirt still manages to fall off my waist and I had to tie and re-tie it over and over throughout the day. A couple of days, I remembered a knot taught to me in high school during my Rover Scout years— The Square Knot.
My photo above doesn’t really show you guys why it’s called a square knot. But if you google it, I’m sure you can find out why it’s called that. Anyway, the square knot is usually used when you’re coin first aid on someone who had a bleeding head injury that needs to be covered and put pressure on. It’s particular to use this knot because if done right, it is flat and would not create unwanted focused pressure on an area, while keeping the tourniquet secure. I started using this knot to secure my plaids on my waist and it hasn’t failed me yet! It keeps it right where I need it to be at all times, and since it makes a flat knot, it don’t make a weird awkward bulge on my crotch.
If you don’t already knot this trick, try it out and see if it works! :) If you do and you have other ideas and tricks regarding this style dilemma, feel free to send me a message on my ask and I will update this post.
I also put the arms through my belt loops to again, keep it up my waist, but also because this makes going to the washroom so much easier! I find that whenever I have to go to the washroom and I have a shirt tied to my waist, it’s either I have to haul it up to my chest to not get it wet or anything, or I take it off completely. Having it hanging from the belt loops means that when you untie your knot, it’ll look like the 3rd photo and then you can just do your business—when you pull down your pants, your shirt goes down with it— you no longer have to worry about it going into the toilet. :)
Lately, I’ve been having really awful thoughts (I wouldn’t necessarily call them awful, but I can’t think of a particular term that would describe my thoughts perfectly). If you’ve been a follower since 2009, you would know that high school was a defining moment in my life, not because it was the greatest experience I have ever had, but because it was the complete opposite. High school was the worst part of my life, and I do believe that nothing in my future will ever compare to the terrible experience I had during that time.
After moving here, I had a chance to regain my self-esteem and create a better version of myself. I realized a lot of things about myself that I didn’t know was there until I was out of the toxic atmosphere that all of my so-called friends, back in the Philippines, exhaled. Here, I began to know myself better and distinguish my opinions and beliefs from others. I started to understand my feelings and my thoughts, and know the type of person that I am. Before, I wouldn’t be able to tell you what I thought of people and the things they did, without having to consult one of my “friends” opinions first. I was not capable of making my own decisions and formulating my own opinions about matters because I was too busy taking care of my reputation. My whole high school life was a continuous struggle to be accepted, because I never was.
I know this sounds a lot like the typical teenage drama that everyone goes through in high school (a place where you are supposed to figure out who you are), but my high school days ware more than that. Again, if you’ve been following me since 2009. you would know. So why am I bringing this all up now?
Well, lately I’ve been getting a lot of compliments, instant messages, and the like from people that used to hate me (maybe hate is too sting a word, let’s just say that they disliked me). To explain this briefly:
Only now do I realize that despite the passage of time and that I’ve grown into a much better person, someone who can stand alone and be proud of who she has become, I still hold a bit of a grudge towards these people and well, resentment for the shit they put me through. Don’t get me wrong, I know I did some bad things too and that I deserve some of the judgements I received, but I just feel that a lot of them just went along with the bullying (I’m calling it bullying, fuck what you may say, because I felt bullied) just because everyone else was doing it too, and I hate that.
Now, all of these people that judged me, that treated me poorly and completely ignored the fact that I had feelings too—feelings that were hurt, feelings that were constantly judged until it just got tired and didn’t try anymore, feelings that at that age, were too much to handle, feelings that led to suicidal thoughts, feelings that made someone feel like the world was about to end, that things will never be better, feelings that could’ve ended someone’s life if not for another someone (an amazing someone. a someone that could change someone’s life forever) who gave me a chance— are all up in my grill trying to be nice and friendly with me. Like I’m just supposed to forget all of the abandonment I got from them. Like I’m just supposed to ignore and forget the things they said about me…
To tell you the truth, I really think that I’ve moved on from these people. I am friendly to them and thank them for their compliments and talk to them when they message me. I am also not being fake towards them when I talk to them or compliment them. If anything, I am completely indifferent to their lives and their opinions and their motives. But I refuse to let go of the pain they put me through. Because after all that, and despite all of the friendliness they’re all showing me now, I know who they truly are. I know what they are capable of and I know that those are not the type of people I want to be associated with.
I don’t want anyone else to feel the way I felt when I was in high school. No one should ever feel that way about themselves when they haven’t even been given the chance to find out who they are and what they want. No one should ever feel like no one in the world cares for them and that their disappearance would not make a difference. And God forbid anyone to say that someone, who killed his/herself, was “such a loss” when they never made him/her feel that way when they were alive to feel it.
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